Sunday, January 19, 2014

Bitter Sweet Goodbye


Hello There--Caitlin here! 
Mom, Dad, Kevan, and Stephen--I've missed you guys so much! I can't wait to see you all soon! :) 

I volunteered to write on the last day of the trip because I knew I would need time to process all we've been through these past few weeks, and boy was I right. (Sorry Mom!) ;)

Well, today marks our last day here in ZA (South Africa), and to be honest, we all have mixed emotions about leaving. While we miss our homes, loved ones, etc…South Africa has stirred something in each of our hearts, and we're not quite ready to leave. 

At least we had a very easy day today. We went to St. Paul's church in Philippi (a township near the Sweethome township), and painted a few rooms in the church. Afterwards, we headed back to the Retreat Center (which we now call home) to pack. As we all became accustomed to sixteen hour days filled with classes, camp activities, screaming kids, midnight bedtimes, and 7am alarm settings…the quiteness of our last day made all of our hearts realize just how much has happened in the past few weeks, and how much our hearts are now forced back to the reality of everyday life. 

But while our day is less full schedule-wise, it is packed with goodbyes. Today we say farewell to our Bridges kids, and that is not something I'm personally looking forward to. I have a very hard time with goodbyes, so tissues will be a necessity. I have absolutely fallen in love with these kids, and hate the fact that I won't get to see them throughout their school year. Their warmth, joy, laughter, and hearts have captured all of us, and we all wish we could take them with us, or better yet, stay here with them. Our hearts pray that God would lead them through this school year, and that they would grow into the men and women they're meant to be. The love we have for these kids is abundant, and we will miss them every single we day we're not with them.

Oh my goodness, I am so overwhelmed while thinking over the last few weeks.  I seriously feel like we've been here a few months rather than the fourteen days we've actually been here! God has done such incredible things! And now that we're leaving, I can't say that I'm taking my heart with me. From the second we landed in Cape Town, it felt like home; and I know I am not the only team member with that feeling. It's every missionary's dream to fall in love with the place they're called to serve in, but I found that we didn't fall in love with South Africa, we fell in love with its people. 

Whether it was a child from the Sweethome township, a member of the CHE's (Community Health Evangelism), the high schooler's at Bridges, we all made deep connections with the people we were called to serve. And while, in my mind, I would be bringing home the weight of their stories, and the burden of their sorrows, I'm blessed with the gift of their joy. Because in spite of their circumstances, I saw more joy, more laughter, and more peace than anyone I know back home. God has blessed them with the peace of His presence, and they choose to rejoice, rather than weep. I am changed by their example of trust, service, and faith; and I pray, for our entire team, we hold on to the mentalitiy these beautiful people live by.

While I could go on and on, I know I need to end with this simple statement: God is here. God is working here in this broken Country. And while there will always be worries and concerns for the people we leave behind, God isn't leaving them. The family we have here is just as close to us as the family back home. We are bound by our Savior, and in that, we can smile knowing He is with them always.

South Africa, you stole my heart. And I don't really mind! ;)

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